Years ago, a friend of mine asked, "If money was not a problem, what would you be doing?" to which I replied, "I will probably just write." I do not know why I said that to be honest. I mean, I have a blog. Actually blogs. I joined WordPress, Blogspot, and Tumblr. But I rarely write anymore. A few weeks ago, the same friend recommended me a web-based platform called 750 Words. The site provides you a platform to write privately by spending a bit of your time every day to write at least 750 words. My first piece was ranting about how hard it is to write. There are 3 big reasons why I get writer's block (sounding like an author, who do you think you are?) and/or why I do not write at all. Ini dia beberapa alasan kenapa menulis itu susah. 1. Strong desire to write in English
Antara biar keren dan siapa tahu viral jadi bisa di baca seluruh dunia. Talk about dream big, huh? Tapi maksa nulis pakai Bahasa Inggris bikin jadi gak selesai nulis karena kelamaan mencari vocab dan benerin grammar. Kenapa gak bilingual? Soalnya saya suka sebel juga kalau lihat tulisan menclak-menclok bahasannya. But hey it is literally what I'm doing right now. Selain itu saya juga bingung harus pakai 'saya', 'gue', 'aku'. Ah what the hell.
2. I re-check every 2 minutes
Udah sok-sokan pakai Bahasa Inggris, tambah lagi suka banget nge-check ulang sebelum tulisannya rampung. Ya kapan mau selesai deh. Padahal mungkin baru bikin kalimat pembuka.
Pas banget tadi malam saya mulai baca buku nya Amy Poehler 'Yes Please'. Judul Introduction nya; Writing is Hard. Well it is. She says that it is hard for her because she has jobs (which also mostly writing- scripts), she has two boys and was in an on-going divorce process. I have a lot of free times in my hands. So why is it hard for me as well? That would be because of point #3.
3. Believe that there's always pros and cons but terrified of the cons
I have been living my 25 years of life freaking out over stuff. I have thoughts almost on everything, excluding politics. I naturally overanalyze things. Not to mention that I am an extrovert so I actually have a lot to talk about and I want to share it.
Saya pengen apa yang saya tulis, pendapat saya, dibaca orang tapi saya takut di debat. Saya suka ngerasa pemikiran saya keren (what defines 'keren' actually?) tapi sedetik kemudian pasti langsung goes to the worst scenario; ada celah untuk di debat orang. I avoid conflict. That is why I drive very slowly. While everybody on the galaxy knows that there will always be pros and cons. It is not that I can not defend my own opinions. It is just that conflicts suck.
Padahal gue selalu suka feeling ketika saya menyelesaikan tulisan. I am not a famous blogger or something. But I like the feeling. Especially when you finish and you read it from the start. It is kinda a nice feeling.
That being said, this is also an invitation to anyone who wants to contribute to Pulang Kantor. Comment below if you are interested. Do not think about those 3 points (if you happen to have the same problem with me). Just keep writing, man. It will get somewhere. I happened to finish this post in 2 days hahahahahaha. But hey I finished it.